My mother in law coined this perfect phrase....Turn Around Day. That is what yesterday was. In the morning, I said goodbye to my preschoolers, closed the final chapter of my failed business and created scenarios in my mind of 1 million different what if's. By 8:30 last night, I had a new job, a salary, an office, and the need for someone to pinch me. This feels like the biggest cosmic do-over ever. The tunnel has been so long and dark for such a long time, that finally emerging into the light is taking a little adjusting! Or maybe a lot of adjusting. I feel like I have maybe finally come into my authentic self...or at least gotten much closer to the center! It is all so much of a wow.
Faith is a funny thing. All along, I have trusted that God had a plan. From the moment I felt the call to ministry, God has put things in place that, while not easy, have gotten me to where I longed to be. And yet, while I trusted, when I let MY mind and MY need for control take over, I was met with huge doubts and frustrations galore. I think that was God's way of saying shut up and trust child. I am in charge, we'll get there together. And here we are, arriving at this call together. My faith in God is steadfast and my faith in myself is being restored.
So June 8th, I begin this new path. Changes will have to happen at home, a little sharing of duties, streamlining of routines. But mama will be happy. And when mama is happy, everyone is happy. And everyone is breathing a huge sigh of relief, and everyone is dancing in the glory of God!
No comments:
Post a Comment